My darkest moment

I told them I felt different,

Awkward and a bit excited, bad even.

I could not tell their expression.

It’s funny because that is what I am afraid of.

Okay not 100% Frighten then,

But I doubted everything I planned to say

Worrying that it might not make any sense.

My darkest moment, it’s like being led by the blind.

Covering it all now with smile.

I must look calm- I said.

But deep inside I am nervous to death,

kowing that I can so easily make a fool of myself.